Starting again. Every day we wake up and start again. Today I decided to start my disciplined Ashtanga practice again.
It has been almost a month since I last wrote in this blog. Thank the yoga-gods that isn't the last time I actually practiced. In fact I have been practicing as much as I ever have. But sadly, my Ashtanga asana practice has been losing steam over the past month. The focus required for a disciplined practice has been washed away and overrun by the basics of keeping a full life moving forward while living in Haiti.
It isn't that I don't have time. It isn't that I don't have the energy. It isn't even that I am not practicing and doing asana every day. What is missing is focus and discipline. Exactly what I need in my life overall and exactly what the Ashtanga practice has to offer.
So here I am on Friday May 3rd, ready to re-engage and re-immerse myself into the will of my focused and disciplined practice. I practiced this morning a full focused two hours and it was awesome. Doing the sequence in order and on point created a powerful coming home feeling that is still sitting with me.
The second win was still being able to bind Marichyasana C, super glad that my haphazard practice over the month kept my hips and shoulders open enough to maintain where I left off.
The third big win was that I actually lifted both legs of the floor in dandasana. Something I have been trying numerous times in almost every practice as I work toward the strength I need for jump-throughs. It was only a half a second, but I did it more than once. That feeling of doing something that I have been trying to do day after day for weeks on end goes into the win column of life.
I know life isn't all about the wins - but damn I love to feel good about work I am doing on my yoga mat and in my life. Day 1, Stage 2: Big Win. Because life is a work in progress...the tagline for Project Zen where I currently teach in Haiti.